Energy Enigma

9 Weeks Out!

[Now you can see my dorm room. Do not Judge]

So it's happened, what I've been waiting for... the return of my energy. I feel so normal, it's really weird. I like it. Last night I went to bed nice and early/on time around 9:30 and didn't wake up this morning until 8:00am. Glorious! That's right people, no 6am shift at the library, no 10am Japanese class. It's kinda freaky. I spent yesterday afternoon making food and lots of it. I cooked 10lbs of chicken on the George Foreman and crockpot. I cut up and baked the SPs that Cindy got for me, grilled up all my bison for the next 6 days, and washed and tupper-wared a few cans of black beans. Somehow this made me feel more like a figure competitor. I remember way back in January when things were tough I would ask myself "what would a real figure competitor do?" but now I ask myself "what should fitNasti do? " That's right, because now I am a real figure competitor - how cool is that?

Yesterday was moderately busy, especially with squeezing in shifts, clients, and physical therapy. I hadn't been to see Dr. Gray in a while (2 weeks?) and I was grateful to have him work on my left leg, which still gives me some trouble. It's so nice to go there and I'll be sad when my insurance runs out and I can't continue treatment. It's always fun to chat with Marijean and Maria about things (especially when I have energy). When I got off a shift at 12 yesterday I headed over to BVI to get my tan on. I admit it, it's become enjoyable and relaxing - I even fell asleep on the bed and got a mini-nap! Post-tan I was finally able to get over to Chef's Mart and buy my 10lb bag of chicken and bulk produce. I had to zip over to Dr. Gray's and then right over to work at 4, so I wasn't able to drop by my room and put away my groceries. This lead to me dragging my food down to the gym with me and stuffing it into the mini-fridge behind the desk. This is the second time this week that I've had to utilize my work place for food limbo. On Sunday I stuffed my Wal-mart chicken into the fridge at the phonathon. I think I've pretty much lost all my boundaries when it comes to what I'll do for this competition which is why dragging around raw meat doesn't even phase me.

Yesterday I had a fun double-session with two of my favorite clients: Maria and Elliot. Maria is hard at work for her FAME show and NPC Junior Nationals and Elliot is just plain crazy to want to train with me (just kidding, I am not that intense no matter what the rumors are). It was definitely fun for me to tag-team the two and I just hope that they also enjoyed it.

Tonight I am headed back over to Fitness 2000 to meet up with the Jillfit girls to do another run through. I need as much heel-time as I can get. Yesterday I heard some feedback from one of the NPC judges who basically everyone I've talked to has said is THE person to impress. His opinion really counts. His advice to me? Simple: put on some more muscle and practice my posing. That's exactly what we are doing! I am so glad to hear this and not: be leaner next time, or work on your proportions, etc etc. Build muscle and practice my posing. Got it! I've put up one of my 9 weeks out photos so you can see the difference. I might just be convincing myself of it, but I'm pretty sure I've put on some more muscle and I hope that there's more on the way!

School, yes, one day very soon you will not have to hear me talk about it again... Tomorrow is my first of three exams and I honestly haven't studied excessively for it. I've got a little plan today to study for an hour, take a break, study for an hour, take a break, etc... At this point I am not worried about the things that I cannot control. I will be alright. I will graduate. I will survive!