Commence Zombification

I need to be more realistic about this whole having energy thing. Just because school is over doesn't mean I get an instant energy boost... even though that's how I imagined it. Yesterday I hit one of those energy walls that reminded me why not everyone in this world does/can do figure. Sometimes it's just mind-bogglingly difficult.

My roommate has gone nocturnal, which means she's going to sleep when I'm waking up. This also means that my sleep schedule is intermittently interrupted by her during the night due to her needing to get back into the room and retrieve things to work on her crazy super long essay that has been slowly killing her. I hold none of this against her, but it still remains that I am not getting the recovery time that I need even though I really, really need it! So yesterday on barely any real sleep I got up to go in for a full day of work. During my leg workout, for the first time ever, I reached my failure point. I'm supposed to do free motion squats at 140 for 3 sets at 10 reps. Third set I only got 8 before I was stuck on the floor. My mood quickly soured (I was already in a pissy mood from lack of sleep and my third-degree-burn level americano). It sucked. I've never had that feeling before - it hurt physically and emotionally and just fueled the anger and aggression I was already feeling. Of course most of this got directed at myself, but it was still a lot to deal with. I finished my workout and was quickly drained of all energy. Sometimes I get really wiped after a truly heavy weights session, but this was more than just one of THOSE days. I keep thinking about last contest prep, trying to figure out when it was exactly that my energy levels starting falling off and I started living like a zombie. I'm not sure there was a day, or maybe I was too stressed and overworked to notice it. I'm pretty sure yesterday was that day of this contest prep. I think zombification has commenced.

So imagine my chagrin when I realize that the WFU is closed on Saturday because summer hours start today - weekends are nixed entirely. Now, I know I have access to other gyms in Winston, but other gyms don't have Prowlers, and Saturday is Prowler conditioning day. Kim's answer to my problem? She told me I could do my 5 makeyouwannapuke pushes either yesterday or today. Well, that's not much of a choice! It got to choose between compounding my energy drop and failed legs with more hella-heavy weight OR destroying my already sore and sad legs the day AFTER my leg-failure. I went for the same-day trial of pain. So after training clients, working at the library, working back at the gym, taking care of my neighbor's cats, and slipping in a quick little nap... I came back to the gym and pushed that prowler until I felt like I was going to retch my chicken and SPs all over the Miller Center floor. This would have been enough to put me over the edge, but I also had 30 minutes of cardio left to do. So after training Maria, training Elliot, and working behind the desk at the gym again... I finally started my 30 minutes of cardio at 8pm. Finally got back to the room and forced myself to take a shower. I had my last meal right before cardio, so I couldn't go to sleep until 10 (2 hour rule between food and bed) so I watched some X-files and called Jamey.

I'm sort of excited about my nerdy venture into the X-files. It's a TV show I've always wanted to watch but never had the time to. So I checked out the first half of the 1st season and I've been fitting in pieces here and there. I figure I deserve a little down time now and again, right?


Today is the day of the big move! It's not actually THE day, since I haven't packed everything into one congolomerated mass to simply relocate, but it's the first day of the big move. The plans for the day? My dad is going to help me move my twin bed from my room in my family home to Heather's guest room and I'm going to attempt to get my food over there too. Yes, I've prioritized the two most important things for the move: sleep and food. I'm pretty excited and I hope I have enough energy to get through it all. I'm NOT a big fan of moving, mostly because I've been doing so much of it for the last four years (semesterly basis and all that). It'll be nice to settle in for a little bit... but I can't get TOO settled since I'll be living out of a bag again come mid-June when I'm at Governor's School again. In anycase, check back to see how it goes :)