Each day is one day closer to ending survival and becoming a flourishing person. If Jamey could make it through 19 months in Iraq then I can make it through 4 weeks to competition, 2 weeks 'til Governor's School starts, 62 days 'til I go to NYC with my Aunt and 64 days 'til I move out to Utah and then 124 'til Asheville. Breathing deep. Getting through minute to minute, hour to hour, day to day. I am training myself to do what I want. To really get in touch with my feelings. I'm very good at making myself do things that I do not want to do and I had the epiphany that I don't even know what I really want to do. So starting today I will do what I want to do. I will get in touch with how I really feel.
How have I felt so far? Well today I got up and I wanted to do my cardio and when I did it I felt pretty freakin' awesome. WTF. Love that feeling! I was empowered by my desire.
I want to go to work and make up for the time I lost this week. I want to complete my project and do a good job, make up for being a brain-drained zombie for months. I want that for myself, to encourage myself that I am who I WANT to be.
I'm going to train like every day is the last day of life... and the first day of my life. Here goes.
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